Leaps of Faith (Whee!)

Oh hey there, it’s been awhile, hasn’t it? Well (deep subject), I’m still juggling a whole bunch of stuff at the moment: helping put on an auction (see my previous post about Gloria’s Angels), plus the big screenplay rewrite (we’re on track to be done by year’s end, with casting to begin in early 2013), and just plain working at the ol’ jobby job. Plus, I have been mulling over and finally decided to take the plunge and strike out on my own, full-time, by starting my own freelance design/copywriting business. I’ve been dabbling in design more as a hobby with little projects here and there, and using my skills on the job for many years, but I want to give it my full focus now, while continuing to follow my various creative pursuits. Never a dull moment; I can’t imagine just doing any one thing forever; I’m a free spirit who wants to embrace as much as I can while I still can. It’s requiring a lot of leaps of faith, but I am at a point where I feel I can trust my abilities and believe in myself, knowing I will land on my feet.

It’s a scary thing, to decide it’s time to take your potential and future into your own hands, but also very exciting. Too long I have been in a rut, just going through the motions, in a direction/environment that doesn’t suit me and leaves no room for growth, motivation or real satisfaction. That means it’s time for a change, yes? We are the only ones in charge of our destiny; nobody’s gonna do it for us. Sure, I have learned much over the years, but now it’s time to do something with that knowledge. There is no shame in wanting to follow your heart and ambitions; I have told my own friends this time and again, and it’s time for me to listen to my own advice. I’ll be okay, I just need to believe in myself, even if there are those who doubt a person has it in them to be successful (those people may have regrets of their own, to think someone will fail before giving them a chance to prove themselves, but I digress). Life is meant to be an adventure with twists, turns and uncertainty around some of those corners and crossroads, and too short to not take chances on ourselves. I am worthy, and so are you (in case you needed a little moment of pep to inspire yourself). 🙂

I have been somewhat giving myself a crash course in all the things that make forming a personal business venture legal and all that fun stuff – I’m not a numbers person by any means (despite the fact I watched Square One TV religiously), so it’s a bit terrifying in some aspects. And certainly I’m not doing so without consulting people who have a little advice (and there is plenty of information online, thankfully). It also helps to have friends who believe in me, as I have rallied behind and seen them make big changes in their lives; now it’s my turn. Thankfully, I do have some clients lined up already, and my business site is in the process of being set up (by who else but ME!) and it’s been an enlightening adventure so far. After things fully launch, I will post about it here! Once I get my feet wet in running operations, I will surely have some advice to share with others who are thinking about or trying to do their own thing, so do check back. I do look forward to the process and while nothing worth doing is easy, I’m ready for the challenge. Stay tuned… 🙂

This has become something of a rambly post, but it’s all about making strides in my plan and not being afraid anymore. I hope if anyone else is looking to do the same that you have much success and never give up on a dream! Thank you! 😀

P.S. Happy Birthday, Annie – we miss you and love you always.

  3 comments for “Leaps of Faith (Whee!)

  1. October 12, 2012 at 4:39 pm

    I am so happy for you Jill ( Yes, I know I say that all the time. lol!). I know a little bit about changing your destiny. I have recently been blessed to have people in my life ( including yourself) that wants me to succeed. My teacher who is a fabulous theatrical light designer had invited me to sit in on a university tech rehearsal for a there upcoming show. I also think he is going to take me under his wings. It is always good to step out on faith. If I didn’t take my first few steps and make the big decision to start collage. I probably would have been at another dead end job. Life is all about the road not taken to me. But, that is the beauty of it. it is the journey in finally taken that road. At, least for me it has so far been a wonderful ride and I hope it will be the same for you. I just wanted to let you know that I am behind you every step of the way.

  2. October 12, 2012 at 4:58 pm

    Great Leaping Lizards!!well, another deep place, you know I’m behind you all the way…and SCARY things?? Know the feeling.

  3. October 15, 2012 at 9:49 am

    Thank you both for your encouragement! I think the biggest hurdle to clear was to believe in myself first…although it would help to be doing something that feeds my soul and leaves me with a sense of accomplishment and purpose. There are so many things that are not helping that right now, and yet, there are things on the horizon that are already fueling my spirit and giving me hope. I’ve basically allowed myself to be oppressed and repressed (walked all over, taken for granted) when I know I deserve better, and hello, self-esteem train finally pulled in! About time, I say, but the product of working slowly toward doing things for me instead of setting my own interests aside to please others (which is sometimes futile).

    Once I have moved forward, I will not be looking back, except to see how far I’ve come! It will be nice to finally feel like I can not only aspire to make things happen, but see them happening in front of me. There will always be those few (but only few) who don’t care to believe in me, but that’s their problem, not mine. Frankly, I don’t need those kind of people in my life, no matter who they are. 😉

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